Constance Ore is a retired Teacher, Choir Director, and Organist. And a formidable cook.

August 11, 2010

Filed under: — Constance at 9:40 pm on Wednesday, August 11, 2010


Since beginning the Blog, many of you have written in response “I’m (or) Mom (or) Dad (is) in Hospice now”, to tell me about the profound step that this comment encompasses… The thoughts about antibiotics and other meds that might take this away were there right behind the eyes, but the rational self repeated again that there is no way to delay or hurry death. We all die, so everyone you meet today will join you and hopefully whatever has been your own most glorious mental image of heaven will begin to surround you. I don’t know the great mystery.


The disease is most profoundly involved in my left lung. If I take a huge breath, the lung informs me “Don’t do that”. The loud, constant hacking must be annoying, but the caregivers assure me it is “nothing”. I think “hah!” but drop the subject. My life has not changed greatly since last week,that is, in the cadence of how the days move but as I go through it feels like its takes me a long, long time. I am inhaling oxygen and I reel a little when I walk, so you can imagine someone hovering, right? My energy no longer exists and I am getting confused about what day it is.
There. That is the way this feels today. I think I’ll give “The Disease” a big font.

We have found the readings from the Psalms to have the cadence of comfort…Psalm 121, Psalm 112, and on and onward. The best prayers seem to come from childhood. “Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray thee Lord my soul to keep. Asking thee to watch and keep, and to send me quiet sleep.” Perhaps that prayer repeated hundreds of times throughout this life comforts because here is the same God that made me always feel safe. I think we all had a “Pneumonia Moment” when we signed the Hospice papers, and the fact that I am still here is a happy surprise.

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Comment by Irene Beethe

August 12, 2010 @ 5:18 am

Dear Connie, Yes, the loving Father you prayed to as a child is still with you….caring, loving, and keeping you safe. May you live today in His strong and loving arms. Peace and love in Him, our Alpha and Omega. Irene

Comment by Carol Hoerger

August 12, 2010 @ 9:09 am

Dear Connie,
Our simple childhood prayers are often the most comforting. I pray the Lord your soul to keep.
With love, Carol

Comment by Richard Wiegmann

August 12, 2010 @ 3:00 pm

Connie, I would like always to have the option of coming back to Nebraska and being greeted by your enthusiastic welcome from the top of the stairs in a yellow-walled house, by your open arms and by your wide, generous smile (so clear in the ambiguous photo at the top of your latest blog). Of course, you would be in the kitchen.

But, then, this is probably selfish of me.

While we can’t see it clearly, God will certainly have the most unimaginably warm welcome for you. (I’m trying not to envision cumulus clouds or gold-plated Coffeeville, KS pavers at the top of a staircase—or even a God with arms and a smiling face.)

Ah, Yes. Unfathomable Mystery. And Certainty. Ultimate Reconciliation.

Richard

Comment by Mindy Werling

August 12, 2010 @ 3:12 pm

Dear Connie,

I am thinking of the delightful arrangement of “I Am Jesus’ Little Lamb” by your Dr. Charles W. Ore, which I heard him play at a hymnfest at Zion Lutheran Church in Harvester, MO, a few years ago. I just discovered that the lyrics were written by a woman! You probably already knew that….Well, anyway, here they are:

“I Am Jesus’ Little Lamb”
by Henriette Luise von Hayn, 1778

1. I am Jesus’ little lamb,
Ever glad at heart I am;
For my Shepherd gently guides me,
Knows my need, and well provides me,
Loves me every day the same,
Even calls me by my name.

2. Day by day, at home, away,
Jesus is my Staff and Stay.
When I hunger, Jesus feeds me,
Into pleasant pastures leads me;
When I thirst, He bids me go
Where the quiet waters flow.

3. Who so happy as I am,
Even now the Shepherd’s lamb?
And when my short life is ended,
By His angel host attended,
He shall fold me to His breast,
There within His arms to rest.

Sending love your way today,
Mindy

Comment by John Casey

August 13, 2010 @ 1:15 pm

Dearest Connie – To repeat a few of your well-chosen words it is a “happy surprise” that you are still able to communicate to so many with such clarity and insight. Although your words are different, they so remind me of those of Walt Whitman

DAREST thou now, O Soul,
Walk out with me toward the Unknown Region,
Where neither ground is for the feet, nor any path to follow?

No map, there, nor guide,
Nor voice sounding, nor touch of human hand,
Nor face with blooming flesh, nor lips, nor eyes, are in that land.

I know it not, O Soul;
Nor dost thou—all is a blank before us;
All waits, undream’d of, in that region—that inaccessible land.

Till, when the ties loosen,
All but the ties eternal, Time and Space,
Nor darkness, gravitation, sense, nor any bounds, bound us.

Then we burst forth—we float,
In Time and Space, O Soul—prepared for them;
Equal, equipt at last—(O joy! O fruit of all!) them to fulfil, O Soul.

John

Comment by Heidi Ore

August 14, 2010 @ 6:29 am

Today, Mom and Dad celebrate their 50th wedding anniversary. They were married at Hannover, a church in rural Iowa outside of Rickets, Charter Oak, or Denison (in order of smaller to larger towns in the area)

It was at 6:30 pm. Mom and Dad tell me it was a perfect day, 72 degrees.

Happy Anniverary to you both. You are and remain an inspiration on all levels. Thanks for letting me be part of the fun!

Heidi

Comment by Irene Beethe

August 14, 2010 @ 4:47 pm

Dear Charles and Connie,

I know that you have deemed this year the year of celebration of your 50th year together! And today is ‘the day’ of special remembrance! God’s blessings to you both as you live each day in God’s grace!

Happy Anniversary!

Love, Irene and Ivan

Comment by Mira Wiegmann

August 14, 2010 @ 9:18 pm

Dearest Connie,
Congratulations on reaching the actual date of your 50th anniversary. What a blessing you and Charles have been to us. When I saw the photo of you in the wool hat and coat, I was reminded of Nebr. winters, when we hurried to close the kitchen door at 456. I also remembered the day you and Charles moved to the house on Seward St., and we brought over soup in a red flyer wagon perhaps because there was too much snow to shovel out our drive. I recently saw a red flyer made of plastic, what a travesty. However, I am happy to report sighting a traditional metal one at the farmers market today. Traditional wagons, like good marriages last a life time. You, Charles, and your family are in our thoughts and prayers.
Mira

Comment by Carol McDaniel

August 15, 2010 @ 10:27 pm

Happy Anniversary!

Joy…Peace..Rest.

You are loved. +

Comment by LaVonne and Larry Monson

August 15, 2010 @ 10:32 pm

Dear Connie and Charles-
We send hugs and blessings today and always to two
remarkable people.
Thank you for expressing your thoughts in a most
meaningful way as you live each day to its maximum.
Your courage fills us with awe–as you receive your
strength and wisdom from our Lord and Savior Jesus
Christ.
Peace and love, LaVonne and Larry in Decorah, IA
(Vienna, Austria)

Comment by dick gale

August 16, 2010 @ 1:25 pm

Dear Connie and all:

Happy 50th Wedding Anniversary to you and Charles, and a Happy (Surprise) I’m Still Here to you!!

Please know that all of you are very much in our prayerful thoughts. (To the biblical references, I’ll add one of my favorites, I John 3:1-3, read at the close of Christian Science Sunday services.)

dick and susan gale

Comment by Ben Baldus

August 16, 2010 @ 2:33 pm

Dear Connie & Charles,

Connie, while I’ve not met you, although we may have talked on the phone, Charles has been a house guest here for a couple of recitals and two or three hymn festivals.

Sunday, you and your family were in the prayers of the people at St David’s Episcopal Church, Lansing, MI. Know that you have much support in many places… and may God comfort you in your journey.

Ben Baldus

Comment by Lynn Wake

August 17, 2010 @ 3:55 pm

Dear Connie,

Thank you so very much for writing this blog. It’s meant so much to so many of us. While I know you do get marvelous feedback, just think of many many times that number of readers, admirers, and friends who may not post many comments, but are certainly wishing you all good things. You’re a wonderful writer, and I’m so glad you’ve shared yet another gift so widely and so well. Bravo, Connie!

Lynn Wake

Lynn Wake

Comment by Louise Bereuter

August 17, 2010 @ 3:58 pm

Dear Connie and Charles, I wish to join in congratulating you and Charles on your 50th Wedding anniversary! Such milestones seem to be more unique “these days.” When I think of your marriage, the images in my mind are always of the two of you laughing, playing, sharing, giving, and savoring every thing that life has to offer with an extra measure of gusto. Doug and I feel so grateful to have shared in some of those wonderful life experiences.
Now, to echo Richard Wiegman, I too, in my artist’s imagination (not cumulus clouds or gold-plated Coffeeville, pavers), envision a greeting of epic proportions upon your arrival on the “other side”. I’m seeing a crowd of departed souls lined up to greet you with open arms and eager to “show you around.” I suspect it will take you a matter of nano spiritual seconds to get the “lay of the land”, and to move into a glorious new existence sans physical pain.
You will leave a legacy of love that will linger in every smell of good food, in the sound of jovial laughter and all instances of good cheer. Thank you so much for all your gifts! Safe, smooth “travels” both here and beyond. Much love, Louise

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