April 25, 2006
Late this afternoon, I was released from the hospital – Sanctuary looks stunning in this last light of day with gold on the tree tops and dark shadows beneath. More species of birds came in over the weekend, so the songs of evening are more harmonious than before, making it such a joy to be home again! I have added a patch just below my right collar bone for pain control, and the daily regimen is going to include two self administered injections of blood thinner. I gave myself the first shot under the supervising eye of the RN. . . not bad, I thought, though practice will surely improve the whole experience. The shots are given in the abdomen, in a continuous circling of the navel – since the prescription is for a year’s supply of syringes filled with the medication, my understanding of this is that it will be a part of the new life for quite some time. The arterial blood clot is apparently a mystery yet to be solved.
I’m hopeful that the medications will begin to balance in the next days; right now, I am struggling with nausea and keeping my eyes focused. . .I have the feeling that if I looked in the mirror I would find my eyes wandering off in opposite directions and that would be unnerving. Surely life will appear to be more manageable in the light of tomorrow’s new day! Right now, I think that there are so many medications lined up in my brain’s pharmacy that the sorter cells are flinging up their hands in despair and losing track of what goes hither and what goes yon. Tomorrow I get the last of the seven chemotherapy treatments, the Neulasta injection which is to nudge white blood cells into action for the next ten days and another blood draw. I would not mind being someone else for a day or two.