Constance Ore is a retired Teacher, Choir Director, and Organist. And a formidable cook.

May 30, 2006

Filed under: — Constance at 2:47 pm on Tuesday, May 30, 2006

“i’m sick and tired of being sick and tired.” For some reason ever since I have been declared “In Remission” I have felt less well than I did before the wonderful news. Now this is hard. For one thing, there is all the rejoicing that takes place over those lovely words, and naturally, when people see me they give me happy hugs and huge smiles. On Sunday, a woman said, beaming, “Our prayers have been answered! God is so good!” and I stood there thinking about popping an anti-nausea pill and lying down somewhere as soon as possible. Also, dashing through my brain was the perception that I had to look happy too, or risk being considered an absolute ingrate. I instructed my teeth to hang out and said yes indeed, but perhaps she might just keep me on her prayer list for a few more weeks. I am of the opinion that this last round of chemotherapy has taken my body to its limits and my present intention is to call the oncologist and inquire after options about going through the sixth (and last) round of treatment.

Today, rains fell out of the sky without the usual violence of wind, thunder and lightening. All of Sanctuary is standing very still and silent – doubtless in shock at such a quiet gift of watery sustenance.

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Comment by judy

May 30, 2006 @ 8:05 pm

Words are so imperfect. “Remission” must be such a word. “Abatement of disease or pain” sounds so good…it suggests energy, strength, no nausea!
My Japanese pen-pal e-mailed his thanks for the “birthday” card I sent…it was a “congratulations on retirement” card. Oh well, he translated it well enough to know I was wishing him happiness.
The Holy Spirit translates for us too. He “rights” the words we pray. Tonight my prayer for you is one of human petition and thanks…a request that tomorrow you feel like you are in remission and thanks because we know He is daily doing better things for us than we can desire or pray for.

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Comment by heidi Ore

May 30, 2006 @ 9:01 pm

Mom

Let your doctor know how you are feeling and that you think things may not be alright – you are the consumer! The rain missed us – we got thunder and lightning to which the rabbits in my yard munched off my green bean shoots – dag nabit! Other than that my bird house gourds and pumpkins are up and running.

The girls had wonderful softball practices today – Zoie’s coach is amazing and Jon said that Kira was catching the ball all over the place – the pride is running thick here.

I wish I could bring you somthing to make you feel better – I didn’t feel so hot on Monday and the girls tried to cheer me up by declaring it my summer birthday – how could anyone feel bad on your birthday was their reasoning – I had to agree

I love you dearly and I hope that tomorrow is better – Happy Summer Birthday!

H

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Comment by Mindy Werling

May 31, 2006 @ 10:50 am

Dear Connie,

In researching genealogy on my mom’s side, I have come across a family connection to the German Lutheran towns of Frankenmuth and Frankentrost, Michigan.

In 1845, under the leadership of Pastor August Craemer, brave men and women volunteered to sell their homes in Germany and emigrate to Michigan. They founded the little town of Frankenmuth (meaning “The Courage of the Franks”) just to the east of Saginaw. But life in the wilderness was still a struggle. These people were far from their families and friends. A second congregation was organized and sent over in the spring of 1847 under Pastor Johann Philip Graebner. The little town they were to establish was to be called Frankentrost (meaning “The Consolation of the Franks”), and it was to serve as a source of encouragement and comfort to the others.

I wish for you the blessings of each of these communities — courage and consolation — as each needs the other. Continue to go forth in courage as your body works to recover from all that it has been through over the last several months. And may all of your friends and family, but most of all our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, continue to be your consolation and encouragement when you find yourself in that “wilderness”.

Praying that you will soon receive the gift of “feeling good”!!

Love,
Mindy

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